Decisions

decisions yuck. I hate making decisions don't you just hate it when you have to make a decision?? i do. When i think about joining anything i freak out for a long time. I always think i'm not good enough or maybe I'm going against what God wants me to do. I believe God has a plan for everyone. And i know he knows what hes doing. but sometimes its hard for me to take the step of faith. Should i do it shouldn't i? aw man i hate those questions. Why can't life be easier? Cuz Eve and Adam sinned. thanks guys thanks. But God made something for us so we could be happy its called heaven. I cannot wait to get there Hopefully i wont have to make decisions...I hope i can just sit at Jesus's feet or in his arms and just stay there forever and ever. Maybe run with some lions too. ;) But anyway. Decisions are post to be made with God. And sometimes i get the best of myself and don't talk to him about it. But with all my decisions i am trying so hard to talk to him about it first. even little things. I know he wants to be a big part in my life. and he wants to be in yours too you just gotta let him. So now my challenge formyself is to talk to him like i would my friends and family. Talk to him about stuff that i want to do. Sometimes he answers me. Sometimes i just gotta wait. But i will do my best for him. Cuz thats what he wants. So Jesus I love you. YOu love me and i cannot wait to go to heaven. But while i'm on earth please help me follow your path. Sometimes its hard. other times its easy. SO please Jesus stay with me. I love you. :) Oh by the way its raining and its pretty aweeesoomme :) thanks for the rain Jesus!!! :)

somethig new.

Ever done something new? Something you really wanna do but your scared to make a fool of yourself? well i'm doing it haha. lets hope i dont make a total fool of myself haven't done anythin like this before. haha should be fun :) lol. If i make a total fool of myself i guesss everyone will laugh :-) I'll prob join in and have a total red faceee!!!!! AHHHH!!!! :) lol. Its okay I'll have fun

Dreams hurt.

So last night i had a dream about our close friends the stringerzoo. I was so sad :( Cuz i thought it was real when i heather and holly flew out to maryland. I miss them. SOOOOO SOOOOSOOOOOO MUCHHHH!!! I wish i had a lotta money i would SO fly out there and give them BIIIGG hugs. if i could even just do that i would be happy (but staying for like 9 days or more would be better ;) )
Well today is mondya yucky i just did a math test and got a 85% :) not to shabby I'm listening to courage by superchick a GoOOD song i recommend listening to it if you going through something hard :) which i'm not well i am cuz i'm missing my friends and familly but thats okay...Jesus can get me thru it. I wish i could talk to my other flyball friend. But i think shes just to busy for talking. But tats okay. I dont think i've talked to her on the phone for like 4 months. I really miss talking to her. Oh well. jesus has a purpose for everything right? So this post is me being sad...really sad...i wish i could just see everyone i missing right now. but i cant :( errggg...miss them so much. oh well. OH WEBCAMMM! i should do webcammm!!! :D haha that cheered me up :) well anywa gtg back to school :) ttyl

whose the center of your life???

sometimes i think life is the hardest thing on this earth. but the one thing i should be worrying about is how to live my life for Jesus. I'm always thinking about my image. what about jesus's? people will always judge Jesus when youa re around if you profess to be a christian. now i do some none christian things. and i think why did i do that?? because i was tempted and led into it. i was thinking about my image and not jesus's. today i reflected on that. maybe you should too.
i love you jesus you are the center of my life.

Is there any end?

Is there any end to school? it seems like all i'm doing is school..but well i guess thats a life of a homeschooled teen right? haha. Well today i had a photo shoot with miss piggy weird i know but it was fun :) haha holly helped me not get bit...i swear miss piggy pms's...well i better get back to school before i hear HOPE!!! (actualy i haven't even started...uh oh)

So project 365.

So hello i am starting today this new thing where i upload a picture everyday I am going to add on a little blog because i like to type on this one :) so check it out its on my links or here: www.hopeschallenge.blogspot.com

Like i thought...

So like i thought whenever i say i want to go to bible college my family says well what can u do with that degree? ERGGG do i have to plan that much a head? I've been praying really hard on it and it looks like Jesus wants me to try it out. I want to get used to college then decide if i want to go to the "knowledge" college. *sigh* is it only my family who stresses about college? Geesh. Well i'm going ot start a book then wait for my dad to study with him for the SAT's. fun fun...:) love you all!

so right now i'm looking at bible colleges...murrieta right now. It looks really cool living there is 3,200 or something so expensiiivvee I cant beleive it. Its like per semester...ahhh!! but off campus is $1,900. I guess i'm going to be getting a job...if i'm not a full time student i think its only like 50 $ a class But idk. I think i'll deff be needing a job tho. senior year i'm going to be looking for a job any suggestions??? part time student is 100 dolla a class. gosh so expensive but i think its what i want to do. Please pray with me as i decide. sophomore year is almost over :( just 6 more months to go!!! were does the time go? i wish i was a freshman..nah a 6th grader it seemed so simple...well time to go look for more colleges and pray. fun fun.