The paper that touched my heart

~We are fearfully and wonderfully made~
My professor asked us to write a paper on what we would do and how we would feel if we had a deaf child. I decided to not jump into it to fast I had 5 days to write a 1 page paper. I figured it couldn't be to hard so I spent 3 of the days not just thinking about it but praying about it! "Jesus how WOULD i feel if i had a deaf child?" I asked that question many many times. Then the answer came in a verse: "I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well." Psalm 139:14. This verse inspired my paper!
What would I be scared of if I had a deaf child? The only thing that came into my head was: They couldn't hear the music I know and love. I've been playing piano for 4 years my sisters for 6 or more. That means a lot of practice time on the piano! I'm always listening to some type of music, it being maybe my sisters and I singing around the house, Pandora radio going or maybe some worship music blasting! My child would not be able to share that with me.
What would I be joyful about? That this child is otherwise healthy and that Jesus has a plan for his/her life! (I think I actually got attached to this child!!) I would be able to do different things with them! We could still go walking have a ton of fun! Just maybe in a different way!
What would I do? I would still like to homeschool this child! There is a homeschool community called NATHHAN, they support you if you have a disabled child. They are Christian based and I would try to find a group around me! If there wasn't one? Well I would create one!!!
I took this assignment very seriously! I thank Jesus that He gave me the words to put down cause i had it all in my head but couldn't get it out! But with God all things are possible!
Well i should go get something to eat and finish school! Here is a quote I just found it made me laugh!
“Sign language is useful to the deaf but vital to the Italians" - Paul Carvel
!hope!

where did our love go?

~Charm is deceitful beauty is passing, but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised~ proverbs 31:30

I was on CBS.com and realized that the Victoria fashion show was on watch instant i started to watch some of it but then couldn't because the outfits were to skanky. They make them look nice yes that is true. But their cleavage is hanging out and their butts are falling out the back. I really feel bad for these models. I want to reach them. I have no idea how but I really want to show them they don't have to be stick skinny and conform to what the world wants! If we all stuck up and said we want models to gain a little weight and actually look more realistic then we would be changing the world. But no one does. I know these girls must be suffering from anorexia or bulimia maybe even both. I wish they knew that it is not natural not to eat or throw it up. They see if all the time for them its normal. But for us its disgusting.

The verse at the top of this post is something us girls need to focus on. I know that I am very into myself. As you can see in the last post theres ton of pictures of myself. I love them cause their artistic and not cause of who is in them. I hope you do not think I am conceited. Cause all my beauty is from the Lord. Just think of some of the stuff we do. A lot is for us not for everyone. Maybe just little thinks like the last cookie! it all adds up!

I think thats what I learned a lot at the end of 2010. When you become a mom or a family you give up a lot. That is what we should do for Jesus. When we find him to give up what we know is wrong. We can do it for a baby why not for our Savior?

I would be lying if i said i ONLY work out for health reasons. I'm not saying its a bad thing God gave us this vessel we should keep it in its top shape!!! Some people do carry it a little far. Hints models.

I am now starting to pray for all models cause they need Jesus. I hope you will too!
!hope!

Over the Holidays

okay let me give you a family diagram so you can know who i'm talking about in this post!
George my uncle married to Pat have Matthew (9 months)
Kaylyn my aunt married to Ian have Rhianna (3) Joshy (19 months) and Tyler (19 months)

Hey all I have been gone from blogging from some time I guess i should start getting back into it! This Christmas has been the best so far! My Aunt and Uncle from South Carolina came down and my other Uncle and Aunt came down from Lancaster! It was an amazing time with family! I forgot how much I missed all of them! We did family pictures, which was difficult because it was by water and the twins LOVE water and did not want to be held. But Lisa Briley did a wonderful job! (if you need photos let me know and i'll give you her number!) My aunt and uncle told us that Kaylyn could not fly home alone with the 3 kids. So they needed someone to fly home with her. My mom and Heather were like YES! Sadly, for them, heather and holly had a important test and my mom could not take off any days from work. Who was left? oh little ol' me! So again around the same dates as last year I started my adventure with My aunt and cousins!

We started out on the 15th it was a very nice saturday! We even left the house 15 mins early (i say it was because of me). We had to drop off the rental car take a bus to the drop off place (can't think of the name at the moment) which was easy. The hard part was trying to figure out how we were gonna carry everything and have 3 kiddos. Luckily we had a stroller and we rented one of those carts! It worked out okay it was a little sketchy but we made it! I can describe the whole thing in one word Smoothly. So if you ask how it went I would say Smoothly! It was very smooth! We had a lot of people praying for us! I know God answered the prayers!! PTL! My Aunt called me her little minion because I did everything she said! I am very much like her. We work really well together! I just wish with all my heart that they lived closer! One day, they will!

We got home at 1 in the morning I believe and I was out of it. I don't even remembering changing into pajamas! The next morning I and my aunt went shopping and did some errands. What I loved was smacking my aunt whenever i saw a out of state license plate! (that rhythms!) But also I loved how Jesus touched my heart with the scenery! It was so beautiful. But it also left me with a sad thought. I must describe the scene to you!

Every tree is dead. The ice is melting away. the rivers are starting to fill. It was very...dead. But you see the snow, oh the snow made everything look beautiful! God spoke to me, I heard him so loud and clear it felt amazing. I never heard Him so loudly! I starred out the window at the trees and the snow. I realized what He was saying!!! The trees well they were like our sins, dead, no good, but beautiful. The snow well that was the blood of Jesus, cleaning us! He cleans us so well that our leaves start to come back and we are forgiven.

I came flew back home the next day.

I came home and everything went back to normal. I know with the experience I've had will always be with me and I have changed a little. Watching my aunt I learned that a mom is selfless. She gives up so much and gains much more! I love my aunt and family I will always love them! I hope I can see them again very soon!

Thursday I and Kelly did a photo shoot! Which was extremely fun we said goodbye, which was very sad. There were tears from Kelly and Heather. I have some beautiful pictures that Kelly took and i thought i'd share them.

Oh and listen to Rehab by Lecrae the whole CD!