Wednesday, December 30, 2009

1st draft of my kids story:)

There was a girl in a far away land a land that nobody has ever heard of. A magical land. Where girls and boys never had any worries. There were no parents. See in this land there was a maker. They called him harron now harron was a great maker. He loved his boys and girls with all his heart. But in this magical land called lolnaboo was a bad man. Now he stole from the maker. He did first live with Harron but he did something extrodanilary bad. When this bad man called kallen was kicked out of the where Harron lived which was called fudtain, he got kicked down to live with the boys and girls in lolnaboo. Now how kallen stole from this great maker was stealing his creations. He would take them and change the way they were made. He made them go against harron. Now Kallen had to stay away from Harron if he didn’t Harron could surly kill him. But Kallen wasn’t alone. See some of these boys and girls went with kallen willingly. They wanted to do bad things, things that mommy and daddys would not be proud of. Now these children heard the story of the great maker and the bad man. They had a choice, no matter if they came from the good daddy and mommy’s or if they came from bad mommy and daddy’s, they had to choose whether to follow Harron or Kallen. Now harron would not force any one to do anything. He let his creations be free that is how he liked it. He didn’t want them to turn into robots and do exactly what he wanted. He wanted them to choose for themselves. Now Kallen he didn’t like that he wanted his boys and girls to do exactly what he wanted. He didn’t care about them he only cared for himself he was full of pride. Now the boys and girls would be made and Harron would give them to mommy and daddys, the mommy and daddys would raise them. Then when they reached the age of understanding they would choose either Harron or Kallen they could never choose both or none. Now this one little girl was very interested in the evil man. She thought he was the best. She wanted to be just like him. He lived in lolnaboo with his people she believed that a man that stayed with his people loved his people more then someone who waited for boys and girls to grow old to be with them. She never wanted anything to do with harron. Now a little boy who was not to easy to understand liked harron. He believed that a man who creates the boys and girls would love them more then someone who just lived with them. He believed since harron created him he understood. Now the little girl, Well she chose Kallen. When the little girl chose kallen she became rich with the most expensive things on lolanboo. But when the little boy chose harron he didn’t get anything physical. See he got something in his heart. He finally knew someone understood him for sure there were no more doubts in his mind. He was so care free he ran and jumped and sometimes he could almost reach the special place where harron lived. When this little girl grew into a young lady kallen named her. He named her shellen 109. Shellen 109 never felt free she was to scared of who might take her treasures. She always thought bad of others. She did some bad things just for Kallen but he was never satisfied and neither was she. Now Shellen 109 was so much different from the little boy. But just like Shellen 109 the little boy wasn’t so little anymore. He was the handsomest lolnaboo there was. But not for his outside appearance but for his heart. He was always there to help others, even if those others had chosen Kallen. Now the handsome boy got a name too heatin. But his name did not have numbers after it because he was the only Heatin in all of lolanboo! Harron never named his creations the same name twice. He knew how different one was from the other he knew exactly how many hairs he had on his lolanboo head! Now harron was watching this boy and this girl grow up. He felt so much joy when he looked at Heatin. But when he looked at his little girl creation he felt sorrow and pain. He knew exactly why she rejected him. He knew so much. He even knew the thoughts before Shellen 109 thought them. He knew when and where the next little boy Heatin would help. Everytime he would lead Heatin right to them. Now Shellen109 grew more and more worried about her treasure and more unsatisfied as she grew older. Heatin grew more and more joyous helpful and his heart was becoming just like Harron’s. One day Harron lead Heatin right to Shellen109. Shellen109 had fallen into a deep hole and wasn’t tall enough to climb back out. If only she had a rope instead of a gold chain that kept breaking. Now heatin was walking when he heard shellen109 scream for help “help help”she said. “I’m stuck and I can’t climb out”. Heatin heard her and ran as fast as he could. He put his rope down the hole and yelled to her “grab my rope and I will pull you up!” shellen109 did not grab it at first. She was scared he was a robber and made this hole for her to fall in. “NO!” she yelled. “I will not! You will not have my treasure its mine all mine!”. Heatin knew she chose Kallen. “I will not steal your treasure. I am of Harron.” He called. Shellen109knew it was better to run into one of harrons then one of kallens girl or boys. “okay” she said in a small voice and grabbed the rope. Heatin pulled her up. Now when Shellen109 saw that heatin didn’t want anything to do with her treasure but she was still cautious to make sure it was locked in her purse. Heatin and Shellen109 talked for a long time. Heatin told Shellen109 all about Harron! For he knew that when he had to leave lolanboo he would live with harron in a great palace! He told her that the reason harron could not be with them on lolanboo was because he is building a great palace for when lolanboo gets to old and gets destroyed. The palace would even satisfy any heart! She wanted that! But then he told her that you only could get in if you trusted Harron to save them, and if you didn’t you would go to the other palace Harron was building. But this palace was not like the first one. This palace would make you unsatisfied it would make you hurt feel the pain of being torn apart from your treasure. He was so excited he could share this with Shellen109 because he knew you could switch you didn’t have to follow kallen your whole life. He told her she could have it if she just gave up her treasure willingly! But shellen109 did not like that idea. She loved her treasure. She could not part from it! She got angry at heatin! “How could Harron love all his creations but make them choose! If he wants me to be free then I will be free with my treasure! He is not a kind creator he is heartless!” Heatin did not know what to do. Shellen109 got up she said her goodbyes to Heatin she did not want to stand in the presents of a man who chose such a heartless creator. Years and years went by from the time when Heatin met Shellen109. Finally the day that heatin said would happen to Lolanboo happened. All of harrons people were so joyous and happy! While Kallen’s people dwindled to nothing as they were ripped from the treasure and put into their palace. It was so hard for heatin to see. He finally understood why it was happening. Even kallen was in pain. He was in the most pain of them all. It made Heatin’s heart break. It made Harrons heart break too. Then Heatin saw her. Shellen109 was also in that pain. She knew she could have had a chance she knew now that she rejected her one and only savior. She felt like nothing without her treasure. She kept wishing she had a second chance. But Heatin did give her her second chance. She was done and now she had to suffer in all her pain. She did it all there was no one left to blame she wasn’t deceived by Kallen she chose him. Why? Why would she chose a palace full of pain to a palace full of joy she couldn’t comprehend. This story must end. I cannot even write about how much pain Shellen109 was in. She will be in pain for the rest of eternity. But Heatin well he will be in joy and praise with his creator. Now he knows. To understand yourself you have to let Harron understand you. Treasures in this world will not last forever. But the Creators love, that will last an enternity.
Psalm 37:4-Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

christmas in 8 days... excuse me?

so christmas is in 8 days.....................WHAT?!! I haven't got any presents for my friends for my family. I only got the secret santa ones shipped off today. and oh my christmas is in 8 days!!! WHAT?!??!! errrrrgggggggggg i cant believe this! so today is my christmas recital and i dont really want to go :-/ sure its kinda fun but i think i'm gonna mess up on my song and i wont be able to speak and oh my i hatteee recitals. ERRRRRRRR!!!! and i haven't done this type in so long. and we haven't had a rehersal. and omg its like errrr!!!!!!!!!!!! But what can i do Dorinda wants me to do it so i guess i will. but i'm only doing this cuz i HAVE too other wise i wouldn't. i hate this. erg. oh well i got my fustration out. bye bye.

Monday, December 7, 2009

boots:(

so i got the boots but mom says i cant wear them cuz i have't scotched them! whatever that means...maybe i'll get her to go get some. other wise i probably wont be able to wear them :( no.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Shopping :)

so i went shopping with my nana and sisters today!! sooooo funnn :)i got some flannels and i ordered some boots into the payless in escindido so i should be getting those tomorrow!!!! im sooooo excited!! there like 40 bucks high heal and like brown and UHHH-Dorable!!!!! AHHH!! i cant wait to wear them!!!! i'll be wearing them to the ladies christmas thingy mabobber! so i cant wait. i'll prob wear that and my green flannel (green for christmas!!) or should i wear a red one?? tomorrow i think i'm a gonna wear a yellow and grey one. i got 2 and holly got two but were gonna split them. OH but holly got this cutest shirt like OMG CUTE!..lol that sounds funny!!..but it was adorable too!! Also last night we went and saw the christmas cliche at Calvary Chapel Oceanside and it was amazing!!! the mics kept like working and not working. which really bugged me but every opening show must have that i guess..lol! Jim Shaver is like the best writer eveaaaa!!! and kenny and amanda fallow in his acting skills! They are like the coolest family in history of families..well except mine soooo..ya know they will take a close second...lol ;) Right now im watching A walk to remember and waiting for lundry to be done! OMG so i cannot wait for my boots to come!! AHHHHH!!!! im soooooooooooo excited!! i cannot waiiittttt!!! :))) I hope u guys like them..but if u don't then oh well i will! lol. But i will be a giant in them lol. so i'll be like 5'9 but hey if taylor swift can wear high heals then i can too :) lol. Why does lundry take so dang long? lol. its really annnoying!! *you know why ur scared? cuz u wanna be with me too!!* lol i looovvee walk to remember its like my favvvv movie of all time. :) well im gonna go watch it!! i think we shopped for like 6 hours only stopping once at red robin for lunch/dinner! :) Im so happy :) I got new clothes even if its only like 4 shirts!! lol and my boots tomorrow! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! haha theres a lotta ahhhh's in this post. OH DID U GUYS READ MY STORY??!?! it was the last post i know its super duper long and might be boring in the middle but hey i wrote it in like 30 mins! lol so gotta give me props for that! well leave a comment at the story thanks y'all!!! love urs truly

Thursday, December 3, 2009

The christmas they didn't want to come.

Hey i wrote this story when my dad went to pick up my sisters hope u like :)

I was looking around on a chilly afternoon then three kids came out of a house. Yelling and screaming whispering and teasing. They were joyful and happy. The mother comes out of the house and they all stop whispering. She gives them the look that always means u guys got awful queit when I came out. They all giggle and jump in the van. This is no mini van tho this is the biggest van I have ever seen even in my old age. They all pile in. I hear the doggies start barking they are sad that they didn’t get to go with the children. They pull out I know where their going. See the childrens mother has been very sick. she has lost all her hair and she will probably not live long enough for it to grow back. The children know this. I was there when the mother and father told them what was going to happen. They were all in the living room after a fantastic meal by the misses. The children were goofing around with the dogs but when the parents came in the emotion changed. It changed from happiness and joy to seriousness. The father sat down on the floor with the kids the mother on the couch behind him. They were all looking at their parents even the dogs. He had all their attention. He spoke to me in a whisper. Then started to talk to the children. Telling them that their mother was sick. At that the children looked up at him. Their mom had bad sinuses so this was nothing new. But then a tear rolled down his cheek I put my hand on his shoulder no one could see me but they could feel me. The father spoke up and he told them what he’d dreaded to say. He told them their mother would not make it past Christmas. The children ran to their mother with tears in their eyes the dogs started to get antsy they didn’t understand why the kids were so disturbed at what the father said. They father looked at the dogs and the dogs gave him an evil stair. The dogs knew whatever he said upset the family and they didn’t like that. The mother held her children in her arms. All three of them. They sat there for an hour. Talking to me and letting the tears run down their face. I couldn’t help it I let myself cry as well. That night it rained. Rained very hard. Showing the kids that they only had one month left with there mama. They were so excited for Christmas now they didn’t want it to come! They were angry at me. They knew I would be taking their mama soon. They asked why but I couldn’t answer them. That morning was the toughest morning for the children. Their mother was the only one having a good day. She talked to me all night and didn’t ask why but when. She was the one who got it right. Her husband still respected me but not my decision. The mother tried to wake her kids up but she couldn’t. she knew they probably didn’t sleep a bit. So she let them. She went to go take a shower and freshen up. But when she was brushing her hair most of it fell out. She started to cry. Her oldest came in and gave her a hug. she gave her encouraging words and then looked into her mommy’s eyes. Telling her to never forget her when she leaves. Her mama swallowed the lump in her throat and told her she will never forget her. Then the youngest child came in crying rushing to her mommy wanting to be held. The mother had open arms. Then of course the middle child came in too. They all just sat there In their mommy’s arms. Never once thinking about what else to do just wanted to take in this moment forever. They all got up and went on their parents bed. Waiting for their mommy to finish getting dressed and to join them. There mother did. School was out for the holiday so they could stay home all day with her. They heard the phone ring once or twice that day but nobody answered. They all just wanted to be in each others arms. They knew they wouldn’t be able to do this again. I watched them that day. They didn’t know that I was holding them too. The mother whispered her thanks to me. But she still wanted to know the exact time I would be taking her But she would not know until later. That night when the father got home he joined them. They barely ate anything. Then they all slept in the same bed together with the dogs. Even the dogs questioned me in their own way. The next morning was a weekend so the father had the day off. He told me that he would not waste the days away just holding his wife. He knew what he had to do. He got all the kids dressed and ready then got woke up his wife. She was so tired but not as tired as when she was under the treatments. She stopped those a couple months ago. She knew it was her time. The father told the kids and his wife that they were going to have an adventure they were going to do a lot of stuff. They took a road trip one week the next they played in the snow all day. The days went on and on. Until the day came when the three kids came out the door yelling and screaming. They day I was telling you about. See they were going to go shopping. It was Christmas day in 5 days. The kids accepted that Christmas was going to come but they still told it to stay away from them. They were going shopping today. And they knew exactly what they were going to get their mother. See the youngest one was a great photographer and this month they took a lot of pictures together. With their little money they had the got her a photo album and printed all the photos and wrapped it up just for her! The mother did a little shopping of her own buying stuff to leave with her children so they would remember her. Having only 9 years with the youngest 12 with the oldest it seemed so short but flew so fast. She got them all something that each enjoyed doing with her. The oldest cooking, so she got her a brand new cook book. The middle reading, so got her daughter her favorite book. The youngest being her model, so she got her a new camera. she knew her husband had to move on. He was younger then her and he could still re marry. She was jealous she didn’t want any woman holding her man but she knew he would get lonely. She got him an adventure book he loved adventures she wrote down all their many adventures. She cried through it but she knew I was their helping her so she kept on going. Finally she finished her last adventure when the girls came in the coffee shop their shopping done. They showed her what they got their father and the dogs. They didn’t have enough money to shop for each other but they were okay with that! When they got home their father was putting the last gift under the tree. He went shopping alone too. The 5 days till Christmas went by fast. None of them wanting Christmas to come but knew it must. I witnessed them love me in a way i knew they could. The father came to respect my decision and the girls stopped asking why. 8 days after Christmas I woke the misses up. I whispered in her ear. “its time”. She rolled over to her husband kissed him and breathed her last breath. The husband knew what that kiss was for. He got up quickly looking at her. He didn’t yell he didn’t ask why. He nodded his head heaven ward. He had the best life with his wife. Now it was time to start a new one. He went to the phone and made the arrangements that morning the girls woke up to a truck outside taking away their mother. Only one asked why. But she quickly dismissed the thought. She knew why. Because I wanted her. I’ve been waiting to have her. They knew they would see her again. That Christmas was the hardest for them. But they got through it. The father remarried to a lovely Christian woman who the girls accepted and loved. The kids all got married to their own husbands and never forgot their mother. I will never forget one of my happiest Birthdays. I got my daughter back.