Get out there! Dooo it!

You Know those days you stair out your window? Wonder what everyones doing? Knowing they are doing something with their lives and your stuck at home.

Those days seem to be my every day. I'm finishing high school isn't that a good thing to do? But for me i don't care about school. I hate it. I would rather work 12 hours a day in labor then do school. This is how much I hate it. I don't see how anyone could go to a regular college. I want to go to Calvary Chapel Bible College in Colorado Somerset! that would be so amazing I mean the campus is a real CAMP -us lol. Cabins and all :) I could be doing more i guess cleaning, working out, playing with my puppies, More school. But I need motivation some how and I don't know how to get some. Help!!!

When i was a kid there was always a reason to do EVERYTHING! Even the bad things you did something bad to find out what happens when you do it! right? Now its like theres no point. I need to find the reason again. Jesus I have Him and I NEED some alone time with Him but every time I do I get distracted. :( How do i not get distracted?

Well I guess thats all my thoughts today! time to do my bible study and actually start school...yea at 10 in the morning. I woke up late. This week is not my week :(

Windows

Dear Jesus,
I feel like i wanna escape.

Did u ever feel this way?

I feel it everyday.

Is something wrong with me?

I don't want to have to worry bout money, time or future.

God help.

I wanna escape from everyone but you!

I need your help
amen.

Every girl has her blah days!

Each girl has her own individual blah days. No matter what. She can't help it it can last a year it can last only an hour. but it will happen. The difference between the mature girl and the other is what they do when they feel like this. It could be over a guy, a fight with a best friend, school, family, pets, rumors and even nothing. (yes you guys out there when you think of nothing we can feel blah for no reason same thing) a mature girl will look to God. Will look for help. Every woman has been through it. The difference is we want to feel special. So we think that our blah is different and no one can understand. Yes your right no man or woman can feel EXACTLY how you are. But there is someone who can. Jesus. Our Lord and savior!!! You don't think he went through it? He was a baby, he was a boy, he was a teen, and he was a man! He went through it all. He knows what were saying before were going to say it. He knows when were going to make a bad joke he knows when were going to epically fail or if we actually didn't and someone is just going to yell at us that we did. No matter what we do he knows it. Do not feel alone. You have an amazing God right at the tip of your prays. U just gotta pray. Now these blahs. You have to deal with them. Its what a girl is going to go through. So you know what you do? You defeat the blah. You never let it get to you. We all feel it. So what we need to do is look to God show him our weakness so he can shine through it! If we do that ya'll then we become the child of God. Cause what does the child do? He tells his parents he asks for help. And if he doesn't well....they find out. God already found out. He knows why your doing it. He knows ALL things. So don't be scared to tell him. He is not going to be angry. He is going to be loving, gentle, helpful. He will be everything to you if you only let him. Thats the problem we never let him solve the Blah's for us. We think that we can do it on our own. Well we can't. If your thinking right now i want a boyfriend, well you want one to live life with somebody. But us Christians we already have someone. We have Jesus!!!! Were never alone. So don't turn away from the one who will be there through it all. Open yourself up he wants you to tell him whats wrong.

I write this not for other people. But for myself. I get the blahs a lot. But when i do my bible study they run. You know why? because God fills their spot. Listen Learn and Love with Jesus Christ.

Thats all i have for now. (:
Later Gator
.Hope.

Beach :)

So i heather holly amanda p and my daddy all went to the pier ate at ruby's then went walking at carlsbad beach :) it was so much fun heres some pictures i hope your having a good weekend!! and i pray you will always be strong in the Lord!

Some random pictures :)

pictures:

thinking of you

Its 12 o’clock and I’m still thinking of you
On facebook writing my status about you
But you’ll never know
I hit the sheets
Close my eyes
Still thinking of you
But you’ll never know
That every time I think of love
I think of you
Every time I think of happiness
I think of you
Every time I think of you, I can’t think of anything else!
But you’ll never know
On YouTube finding a song, that describes me and you
But you’ll never know…
That every time I think of love
I think of you
Every time I think of happiness
I think of you
Every time I think of you, the world goes away
But you’ll never know!
Oh is it love I feel?
Is it real?
Do you feel it too?
Oh you’ll never know
That every time I think of love
I think of you
Every time I think of happiness
I think of you
Every time I think of you I fade away!
But you’ll never know.
No no no. You’ll never know.
Cuz I wont tell.
and I’ll keep thinking of you
while you never know.

It’s 2 am and I’m still thinking of you!
But you’ll neverrr knoooww!