new paper: Esther's mission

this is a paper i wrote for school. Not to shabby for only taking 2 days ;)

Esther 2:2b “let all beautiful young virgins be sought for the king.”
Every young girl dreams to be a princess! Esther on the other hand didn’t, but she was sought to be a queen! The beginning of her mission started by preparations, at a early age her uncle taught her to love God as a father. The next step of her mission was to become the wife of the king! The last thing was to use her position as a wife to get the decree to be lifted off of the Jews.
Esther’s parents both died, leaving her to her cousin Mordecai! Mordecai was a scribe, he taught Esther all about Jesus and brought her up in the Jewish faith! She was in love with Jesus as her savior! God was raising her to be a queen! While Vashti the Queen of the land disobeyed her husband the king, she was thrown out of the palace and the land. The King sent out his enoch in search for young beautiful virgins! Esther was taken to the king for preparation!
The next step in Esther’s life wasn’t as easy as you must think. Getting prepared to go in front of the king and being a jew was like a country girl being ordered to go in front of the president of the USA! Preparations took half of a year! They soaked their skin into oils to make a fragrance on their skin, they were dressed in great silver and gold. But what they really wanted they couldn’t have, their families. These girls were young ladies from all over the land being stripped away from all they knew! They only had each other and the enochs! When the preparations were done it was time to face the king.
Facing the king was probably the most terrifying thing these young virgins ever did! But for Esther she sought comfort in her Lord! When they were facing the king he found favor in Esther, taking her as his wife! While they were getting married Haman the King’s right hand man was mixing up a decree to get the Jews hanged. Mordecai came to Esther secretly and told her of the awful news of her people! Mordecai told her there was only one thing for her to do, get the king to stop the decree.
How could she do this? The only thing to do was to go straight to him but there was one problem. If you showed up before the King unannounced you were killed. With the strength of Jesus she did just that. She asked the king if he and Haman would come join her for dinner. The king found so much favor in her that he didn’t kill her and even came to dinner! This happened three times. On the third she told her king about her people the jews and told him what Haman was doing! With the love of Esther the king took away the decree and made a new one which was all of Haman’s family would be hanged on the same gallows that he had ready for the Jews! The mission of Esther was complete.
Through all of this Esther loved Jesus with all her heart. She could have been killed on many occasions. But death was not something she was scared of. The mission of Esther could not be complete without Jesus Christ in her life. We may not be asked by Jesus to be a queen or to save your people from gallows. We have been asked to save the souls of our friends and acquaintances! Esther could have been killed, luckily we will never be killed so what are we afraid of? A harsh reply? If that’s all we are afraid of maybe we need to follow Esther’s lead and let Jesus rule our whole life’s?

focus???

Have you ever had it where little things just make you feel awful...almost sickening? Thats how i feel. I wish i didn't have to make decisions. what if i make the wrong ones? what if i dont make them? I know your post to talk to God about it and i do but sometimes i wonder if i hear him right or if i even do. I'm so scared. i gues thats what life is taking chances. I wish i didn't have . really i don't.

flowers :)

Once in a while.

Every once in a while i really just want to be able to stop time. On a tamagotchi if you hold all three buttons at the same time it will pause. Don't you wish life would too? my life is so out of control it feels awful. But maybe if i gave the control to God i wouldn't feel this way. Have you ever heard of giving your full life to God? yeah its the hardest thing anyone can do. Our flesh is so strong that it wants to take over. I wish i could push pause right now. And just think about nothing. They say guys can do that and girls cant..I wonder if its true. What would it feel like to not think about what ur hairs doing or what ur fingers look like or if you turned off your straightener or not.. OH i got to straighten my hair lol.

Life is a mess, And people think that Homeschoolers have it so easy. we don't. Its not normal for someone to homeschool so how do you think we would have a normal life? I dont know what people call a normal life. partying, playing the love game, going to school, having sex. I'll be a rebel. Cuz i don't sleep around, The parties i go to the strongest thing we have to drink is pepsi, I dont go to school, and i' not going to kiss a boy until my wedding day. You may think i'm missing out. But i'm not. I have Jesus and this is what he wants me to do. And i'll stand up for him! I pray that you can see the difference in my life! Don't try to change me. Its not worth your time.

So if your having trouble doing school or even just going on to the next day. Remember this. God lived 30 years in this awful world without sinning! If he can do that can't we get up and do our stuff for him? with him? This world is hard. But with Jesus he makes it right. lean on him! its worth it.

I love Jesus.
live for him

Let me start by saying I love you! :)

Hello:) Well yesterday was Mother's dayyy!! Love you mama!!!(: we spent the day with the Shavers! It was fun kinda an off day... But still fun! we decided to go into the pool and it was freezzinngg lol. WE all huddled into a little ball trying to get warm and it worked! then we decided to go out and take warm showers!! :) yes it was sooo warm and nice lol. Remind me not to go into a pool thats 81 when its 60 outside...its still COLD!

:) I'm a very happy girl (: Hope everyone is having a good dayyyy
BYE!

Mad :)

woah x4

mmm, she's staring at me i'm sitting wondering what she's thinking,
mmm, nobody's talking, cause talking just turns into screaming,
ohh, and now as im yellin' over her, she yellin' over me,
all that that means, is neither of us is listening,
and what's even worse is that we don't even remember why we're fighting.

so both of us are mad for, nothing
fighting for, nothing
crying for, nothing (woah)
but we wont let it go for, nothing
no not for, nothing
there should be, nothing
to a love like what we got, oh baby

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing,
asking questions like you already know
we're fighting this war, baby when both of us are losing
this ain't the way that love is supposed to go
what happened to workin' it out?
we fall into this place where
you ain't backin' down
and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now?

it's all for, nothing
fighting for, nothing
crying for, nothing (woah)
but we wont let it go for, nothing
no not for, nothing
there should be, nothing
to a love like what we got, oh baby

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

oh baby, this love ain't gon' be perfect
and just how good its gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight
long as everything's all right between us
before we go to sleep
baby we're gonna be...

ohhhhh

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no

moving.

I have never moved in my whole entire life. But theres one thing that has been moving. ALL MY FRIENDS. They move all the time. I don't understand why God does it but i guess he does.