Mary's Song (oh my my my)

She said, I was seven and you were nine
I looked at you like the stars that shined
In the sky, the pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
Growing up and falling in love and our mamas smiled
And rolled their eyes and said oh my my my

Take me back to the house in the backyard tree
Said you'd beat me up, you were bigger than me
You never did, you never did
Take me back when our world was one block wide
I dared you to kiss me and ran when you tried
Just two kids, you and I...
Oh my my my my



Well, I was sixteen when suddenly
I wasn't that little girl you used to see
But your eyes still shined like pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
They never believed we'd really fall in love
And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes
And said oh my my my...

Take me back to the creek beds we turned up
Two A.M. riding in your truck and all I need is you next to me
Take me back to the time we had our very first fight
The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight
You stayed outside till the morning light
Oh my my my my

A few years had gone and come around
We were sitting at our favorite spot in town
And you looked at me, got down on one knee

Take me back to the time when we walked down the aisle
Our whole town came and our mamas cried
You said I do and I did too
Take me home where we met so many years before
We'll rock our babies on that very front porch
After all this time, you and I



I'll be eighty-seven; you'll be eighty-nine
I'll still look at you like the stars that shine
In the sky, oh my my my...

I hope you know...

I hope you know, I hope you know, That this has nothing to do with you.
It's personal, myself and I. We've got some straightenin' out to do and I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket. But I've got to get a move on with my life. It's time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry.
I Really love this song it kinda pertains to me. I can't do a certain thing because of parents. Sometimes i think i am really older then what my age tells me i am. I want to do things that i cannot do yet. Get a job get a house a dog and a life. I just don't think high school is a life. Even though it is. I want to do so much. I hate the high school life of everyone trying to step on the other person. Or up them. Never can they just say whooa good job dude. and just leave it like that. No they have to say oh i can do that too or something along those lines. what happened to just saying oh wow thats cool. Modesty. You know?

So I and H&H are housesitting :) i'm up at 1:30 finishing this post and listening to music! I dunno why i'm even up! Something with this house makes me wanna stay up all night! Soccer game tomorrow 2pm wal nut grove be there!
!hope!

When life throws you lemons.....

What do you do when life throws you lemons? Some people make lemonade. Some throw them back and demand cookies. Others duck.

I bought a whole bunch of fun songs off of Itunes they have the 69 cent songs, lets just say i am in love!! I love cheap things! I got 16 songs with 15 dollars!! I could of gotten more but I bought a couple of 1.29 songs cause i really liked them! I got walking on sunshine! I really like it, a couple from police, i love oldie music! Its funny when i say oldie music cause my dad just calls it music cause it was the music he listened to! I like saying oldies to make them feel old ;) hehe. I need some headphones but i don't wanna spend the money to get them. So I think i'm just gonna keep stealing my sisters!

I am really confused about dating. My mom and dad just kinda ignored it when i brought it up. So i know i'm not allowed but the situation in my life is soooo confusing. It hurts my brain.

I'm doing a paper on Thomas Gallaudet theres so much information that I have to shorten my paper...well i better get on that...gtg
!hope!

In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than the laughter
Or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat
Or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust him
And learn how to see him
Someday he'll call her
And she will come running
Fall in his arms, the tears will fall down
And she'll pray

I want to fall in love with you

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it
Goes to the people who stare into nowhere
Can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter
Or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat
Or a song on her lips
Someday we'll trust him
And learn how to see him
Someday he'll call us
And we will come running
Fall in his arms
The tears will fall down and we'll pray

I want to fall in love with you

Seems to easy to call you savior
Not close enough to call you a god
So as I sit and think of
Words I can mention to show my devotion

I want to fall in love with you

Music or Sin?

Have you ever listened to 93.3 or 90.3 or even 94.1? all secular stations. Okay have you listened to Air 1(98.5 or 90.1) or K-Love(100.1)? Which one do you like better?

For me all the secular stations have a good beat! They make you want to move and sing to the song, but so does Air 1! K-love reminds me of church music! Which is i'm in the right mood i like. But isn't that selfish of me? "if i'm in the right mood.." What if God said that to you? "Oh i'll answer that pray...when i'm in the right mood." Luckily for us He is much greater and more merciful that he wouldn't do that. But should we return that love and affection with putting off worshiping the only God who loves us to die on a cross? I feel sometimes i don't pay enough attention to God. I love the worship song that says "you always have time for me even with all the stuff in your hands..", Its so true!! Us being merely people we try to do manage our time...or is time managing us? I wonder about that sometimes. I am not a busy person. Not as much as some other people. I have time to sit around. So why am i not reading my bible? instead i'm reading a secular book. Which is not a sin. No it is not for sure. My books aren't bad at all. their fun good books! What if u didn't watch your shows you just LOVE. You didn't listen to the new song but sang your own to Jesus?

Music was made to worship God. But of course Satan had to take it and make it a sinful thing. Just be careful to what goes in your ears, and your eyes (music videos.

Well thats it for now i have a soccer game tomorrow! woot! Play offs! Wish us luck!
!hope!

Mid Terms

Well those two words say it all. Mid Terms. It seems like nothing else is on my mind well...actually i take that back a lot is on my mind...but they seem to be taking over my thoughts. mid term means paper is due in a couple of weeks and i haven't started yet. I am going to be doing it through God. I really need his help i feel so weak! I actually feel sick too! Not cool. In between my eyes it hurts and my throat hurts a lil and salt and water is not working!! I really wish the paper would write itself some magical way!

OH and the other day i realized my world is more like Ariel's then i thought. I can't date till i'm older, Ariel said she couldn't be with her love because she didn't understand about humans. Maybe their right maybe i don't understand everything about boys! She had a dad who wanted her to do something else stay somewhere she does NOT want to stay. But she didn't have 2 amazing sisters like i do. Or a mama who is pretty amazing! sometimes i wish my biggest problem was trying to get on human land. But who wants to be a human? we are so cruel so mean. But with Jesus i guess we make up for that!

so i need to have confidence today! You know whats sad? I'm only doing this type of school for my parents. Otherwise i would be a drop out working at apple bees. I don't care about education. I care about Jesus and love. I really wish i could have a desire to do school but ever since i was little i never did. oh well.

Well i guess i'm happy that this week is almost over i am so excited for tomorrow!!! NO MIDTERMS!!! WOOOO!! lol. I hope i can do this. Pray please lots of pray!
!hope!

10 things I believe!

So my uncle posted on facebook of 10 things he believed. I respected that he did that not scared what people would think :) which is really awesome cuz teens are always scared to do that! so i decided i'm gonna do it:

1. Soccer is the greatest sport.

2. I don't hate Gays, the people, I hate the sin. It is not something that u are born with. It is something that satan tells you you are. it is not natural.

3. I believe i have the best Family!

4. i believe you should wait to have sex. Not only because its God's law but because I think it is amazingly romantic to wait till your wedding night!

5. i believe school sucks and was created to ruin my life ;)

6. Mad by neyo is the best song around!

7. Music was created to worship Jesus but of course satan used it to talk about other things....

8. I have the best dogs!

9. castle is an amazing show!!

10. Theater is sooooooooooooooooooo fun!

I encourage you to stand up for what you believe. Don't knock other people just cuz of what they believe just show them what you believe.

Dating..?

I really wonder about dating sometimes. I mean i'm not allowed to date till i'm 18. Thats 2 years...thats a long time. I feel like i'm ready to date now! But if you think about it all the girls my age are breaking up after 2 months of "going out". And that really hurts me and i'm not even the one in the relationship. What would happen if i was actually the one in it? I feel like i am a sensitive girl! Don't get me wrong i'm pretty easy going. But certain things i am touche about! Which is pretty much the case with every girl. This year i've been really enjoying God. Not just asking for stuff getting it then thanking him but actually enjoying his love and grace! having fun with him! I think thats what he wanted to let me see this year. That the joy in him is greater then the joy with an earthly man. And i see it! the Joy i find in him is a joy I will always want to feel! I want to have a child like faith and a wonderful man who helps me and guides me! I guess i'll just wait on God :) i know a lot of christian girls feel the same way I do! But maybe thats how the world is gonna see were different. If were okay with waiting. So lets try to be okay with it :)

The problem with weight...

The problem with weight is nobody realizes everyones thinking the same thing you are about their own body. Everyone once in their life will say "i'm fat." no matter who the heck you are you will say it! I hate weight. its so annoying. I'm on the skinny side. I'm 5'7 and pretty average weight for a teenager. but when i was in 7th grade and getting curves i mistaken them for fat. i didn't eat i was embarrassed to eat in front of anyone cause i was afraid they would know how much i eat and make fun of me. I hated myself. Then. I looked through Gods eyes. I saw myself as the gorgeous daughter he made. I love the way i am. I will admit that. I am not as 'fit' as i want to be but thats alright its my own fault. If you are over weight don't think your ugly. Just cause your overweight does NOT MAKE YOU UGLY. I hope everyone understands that. If you are there is a way to fix it. You just have to be serious. REALLY serious. My dad lost a lot of weight because he got scared he'd have a heart attack. now hes almost back down to his high school self. I wish everyone could be able to do it like him. just BAM he did it. But he didn't do it alone. He did it with God's help. You have to realize if you cannot do it on your own then you CAN do it with God. and you just have to trust. please have faith.
!hope!

Veggie tales!

~Tell me why, I don't understand. Tell me why, or show me your hand. Tell me why because I can't see my way through What now should I do?? The battle is not ours we look to God above! For he will guide us safely through and guard us with his love I will not be afraid I will not run and hide For there is nothing I can't face when God is at my side!~

I love veggie tales there are so many reasons why but i think this song is the biggest reason!!!!

Anyway, I've heard so many things bout this is coming out week or something? Like really. The only thing your coming out on is Sin. I do hate the title gays lesbians bisexual. I will say i do. Because that is a sin. You are not born that way. I do not hate the people tho. They are still God's child. I will love them just not their sin. Think about it. Someones an alcoholic we hate the alkehal (as glozell says lol) We do not hate the person. We love the people we hate the sin. You may think thats the same thing but its not. A drug user a gay person. Same difference you come out of the "closet" Your just confessing your sin and waving it in God's face. Like on Glee Kurt says that he was born this way. "God made me this way then he tells his followers to tell me its wrong..." It is not true at all. Satan made you that way. AFTER you were born in this world. People in the bible used to do it and God put his wrath on him.

We shouldn't be encouraging this. especially for youths. they don't know any better. You telling them their gay their gonna think its true. You show them a guy whose gay on tv and hes a role model...well their gonna want to be like him. It is not natural at all. Why do you think their dying from it? Does no one tell them that? Its Gods natural defense against stupid.

You may think sure shes 16 shes just doing what her family tells her is true. Sure that might have a little to do with it. But what about the homosexuals? who are they around? EVERYONE influences you no matter what. So these are my beliefs. My family just happens to believe what i believe. Some people say you have to experience everything. Okay fine you believe that then experience God's love as well. You can't say experience everything except God. That is contradicting yourself. I don't mean sit there in the pews and listen to 1 sermon. I'm talking about getting to know Jesus as your personal savior. Then tell me what you believe.

I know theres people who think "why do you try to change us?" "why cant we just decide for ourselves". You will decide but we want to give you options. How are you supposed to know options if you can't hear and understand them? You will only have 2 options judgement day. Hell or Heaven. I pray you make the right choice before then.

Why is it when people are in trouble they turn to Christians and ask for pray? Because deep down they know its true. Maybe you do too. Get to know Jesus as your personal savior. Trust me its worth it. You wouldn't have to go through life alone. love him learn from him, laugh with him. Its so much more worth it. And it will be in the end too. Heaven is waiting. For those who love Jesus and Believe he is their savior and only God.

If you think thats not true...then okay. I have nothing to worry about. I wasted a bunch of sundays maybe some wednesday nights. I met some amazing people instead of partying. I missed a bunch of parties. I may of missed out on so called "love". If your right then fine I'll go into the ground and i'll die. Woopie. But....but if i'm right. Well. Then you have a bunch to worry about. Think about it.

Oh and for the Christians, that song at the top of the page is amazing! its from "veggie tales: Esther...Girl who became Queen." great song she sings. I'll be praying.

!Hope!

My FAV song!

Psalm 5:3, 27:14, 33:20, 37:7, 38:15, 40:1, Isaiah 30:18, Lamentations 3:24
John Waller

"The explanation for this song is simple, I was waiting on God and I was hurting when I wrote the lyrics. I probably wouldn’t have written
a song if my friend, Mike, hadn’t encouraged me to document what I was going through during that time. I’m sure there are few people
who can’t relate to this song, but the important thing to remember while we’re waiting on God is to not just wait but to actively wait.
Serve, worship and be faithful with what you have, where you are… “even while (you) wait.”

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

Driving to Ramona and back :)

So my mom was doing a flyball tournament up in Ramona she ran the scoring for them! She was soooo excited to go! So on Friday Marla my mom and I took the trailer up there! We set it up then I and Marla left my mom and drove back! It was actually quit fun! So then Sunday which was yesterday and was actually a really good day! Me and my dad drove up to Ramona got the trailer came back before dark because we dont have lights for the trailer! We took Zeba and she was soo scared she did NOT want to play flyball! lol. but we got my mom back safe and sound (:

Right now I and my mom are going through standing for soccer! We are in 2nd place yay! we are moving up! just got to keep it this way! If you want to come out and see us we play at 10 next saturday wal nut grove! Were not like pro or anything but we rock it lol! although we are playing the first place team so probably wont do to well!! They are undefeated and they beat the other teams with big gaps like a 4 point gap at the least. So we will see how we do! Hopefully we will work together more then they do! We actually all get a long pretty much this year! yay! lol. I love soccer i would love to join a club team but it cost to much :( pooey. But the school is going to start up soon yay!!! lol Well i better go! SChool school school..bleck! Have a wonderful day! the weather is perfect for hot chocolate jeans and a nice big comfy jacket!

Thank You Jesus for this wonderful weather!! Awmen!(:
!hope!

Get out there! Dooo it!

You Know those days you stair out your window? Wonder what everyones doing? Knowing they are doing something with their lives and your stuck at home.

Those days seem to be my every day. I'm finishing high school isn't that a good thing to do? But for me i don't care about school. I hate it. I would rather work 12 hours a day in labor then do school. This is how much I hate it. I don't see how anyone could go to a regular college. I want to go to Calvary Chapel Bible College in Colorado Somerset! that would be so amazing I mean the campus is a real CAMP -us lol. Cabins and all :) I could be doing more i guess cleaning, working out, playing with my puppies, More school. But I need motivation some how and I don't know how to get some. Help!!!

When i was a kid there was always a reason to do EVERYTHING! Even the bad things you did something bad to find out what happens when you do it! right? Now its like theres no point. I need to find the reason again. Jesus I have Him and I NEED some alone time with Him but every time I do I get distracted. :( How do i not get distracted?

Well I guess thats all my thoughts today! time to do my bible study and actually start school...yea at 10 in the morning. I woke up late. This week is not my week :(

Windows

Dear Jesus,
I feel like i wanna escape.

Did u ever feel this way?

I feel it everyday.

Is something wrong with me?

I don't want to have to worry bout money, time or future.

God help.

I wanna escape from everyone but you!

I need your help
amen.

Every girl has her blah days!

Each girl has her own individual blah days. No matter what. She can't help it it can last a year it can last only an hour. but it will happen. The difference between the mature girl and the other is what they do when they feel like this. It could be over a guy, a fight with a best friend, school, family, pets, rumors and even nothing. (yes you guys out there when you think of nothing we can feel blah for no reason same thing) a mature girl will look to God. Will look for help. Every woman has been through it. The difference is we want to feel special. So we think that our blah is different and no one can understand. Yes your right no man or woman can feel EXACTLY how you are. But there is someone who can. Jesus. Our Lord and savior!!! You don't think he went through it? He was a baby, he was a boy, he was a teen, and he was a man! He went through it all. He knows what were saying before were going to say it. He knows when were going to make a bad joke he knows when were going to epically fail or if we actually didn't and someone is just going to yell at us that we did. No matter what we do he knows it. Do not feel alone. You have an amazing God right at the tip of your prays. U just gotta pray. Now these blahs. You have to deal with them. Its what a girl is going to go through. So you know what you do? You defeat the blah. You never let it get to you. We all feel it. So what we need to do is look to God show him our weakness so he can shine through it! If we do that ya'll then we become the child of God. Cause what does the child do? He tells his parents he asks for help. And if he doesn't well....they find out. God already found out. He knows why your doing it. He knows ALL things. So don't be scared to tell him. He is not going to be angry. He is going to be loving, gentle, helpful. He will be everything to you if you only let him. Thats the problem we never let him solve the Blah's for us. We think that we can do it on our own. Well we can't. If your thinking right now i want a boyfriend, well you want one to live life with somebody. But us Christians we already have someone. We have Jesus!!!! Were never alone. So don't turn away from the one who will be there through it all. Open yourself up he wants you to tell him whats wrong.

I write this not for other people. But for myself. I get the blahs a lot. But when i do my bible study they run. You know why? because God fills their spot. Listen Learn and Love with Jesus Christ.

Thats all i have for now. (:
Later Gator
.Hope.

Beach :)

So i heather holly amanda p and my daddy all went to the pier ate at ruby's then went walking at carlsbad beach :) it was so much fun heres some pictures i hope your having a good weekend!! and i pray you will always be strong in the Lord!

Some random pictures :)

pictures:

thinking of you

Its 12 o’clock and I’m still thinking of you
On facebook writing my status about you
But you’ll never know
I hit the sheets
Close my eyes
Still thinking of you
But you’ll never know
That every time I think of love
I think of you
Every time I think of happiness
I think of you
Every time I think of you, I can’t think of anything else!
But you’ll never know
On YouTube finding a song, that describes me and you
But you’ll never know…
That every time I think of love
I think of you
Every time I think of happiness
I think of you
Every time I think of you, the world goes away
But you’ll never know!
Oh is it love I feel?
Is it real?
Do you feel it too?
Oh you’ll never know
That every time I think of love
I think of you
Every time I think of happiness
I think of you
Every time I think of you I fade away!
But you’ll never know.
No no no. You’ll never know.
Cuz I wont tell.
and I’ll keep thinking of you
while you never know.

It’s 2 am and I’m still thinking of you!
But you’ll neverrr knoooww!

Keep holding on!

Those three words mean a lot to me. Jesus says he'll never let go of us its us who let go. I feel like i'm letting go but i can feel God's arms around me! He never lets go. just like the david crowder song i think it is...never let go. He never will. Its you who you have to worry about.

school has been going good except for math. bleh. hard to understand. But thats okay. I'll deal.

Me + $ = Very bad relationship.

Have you noticed money is the thing that can tear a relationship apart, kill a man and ruin family? I hate money. BLEH!

My last week of freedom...

So my last week of freedom starts tomorrow! Were kicking it off with a fun lunch with my grandma! Tuesday will be Eli's birthday party from 9-12 which i am really excited about! Then movie with my mom sisters and grandma, lastly soccer! Weds is going to be a me day and i can do whatever i want idk what that is yet lol (: thursday i'm babysitting and then drama! Friday i'm not sure yet but hopefully something fun!!! then the weekend i will plan when it gets closer! I cant believe school is coming so quickly but this week i'm going to enjoy and have fun! I hope you can too or if you started school keep looking to God! He loves you with all his heart! He can hold you up when you think you can't stand!

Life is a season of changes, its not hard to change with it, the real challenge is staying who you really are.

"back in the day..."

I hear that phrase from almost everyone whose older then 30. They tell my bout the "good ole days" and even tho i've never been there i miss them. Running around in the streets, woods, mountain, and missing out on sliding down a big hill with big tires like my dad did! life seemed so much simple. And sometimes i wish i lived in mayberry! Even though there would be NOOOO internet or phones. It seemed sooooo simple go to school find a guy marry him buy a house and be the mother/wife to ur husband and kids! sooo simple. But life really is simple. Being a Christian we have the guideline right in the bible. just some of us forget to read it...like me. When we feel overwhelmed and stressed theres a reason. We aren't spending enough time with Jesus. hes the one who can calm a storm with a whisper! You think he cant calm your storm? He loves you so much that all we have to do is lean on him. But sometimes we forget that leaning on him is trusting, loving, and listening to him faithfully. That means ALL the time. not just sometimes ALL the time. I guess its a lesson I've yet to learn! but i'm working on it! and so should you! (:
<3

Just the way you are by Bruno Mars

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

my new fav song(:

pictures :)